Ashley Laderer

Writer specializing in mental health, lifestyle, and music

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Based in New York & LA. Bylines at: NYLON, Billboard, Refinery29, Vice, DAZED, Elemental by Medium, High Times, Thrillist, Talkspace, Alternative Press, and more!



How To Cope With Nighttime Anxiety Attacks

Nighttime used to be the absolute scariest time for me. As soon as the sky began to darken, I knew my crippling anxiety was approaching. The night became one of my biggest triggers, and like clockwork, I would start to feel short of breath as soon as my head hit the pillow.

Meet the People Trading Their Anti-Anxiety Meds in for Cannabis

Anxiety isn't a qualifying condition for medical marijuana use in most states, but it's still being used for that condition In case you missed it, cannabis is no longer just the stuff of stoners. People from all walks of life are turning to cannabis as a remedy for what ails them - including chronic pain, epilepsy, and anxiety - and not necessarily as a means of getting high.

The Staggering Costs Of Being Mentally Ill

"That will be $50, please." I handed my debit card over to the receptionist. She swiped the card and checked her texts as the transaction took place. An older man behind me in line paced back and forth, talking to himself. He must be new here.

Do I Have To Sacrifice My Mental Health To Have Kids?

When Poppy was born, I sprinted in platform shoes through the hospital to get to my sister, whom I found looking as blissful as she did exhausted, staring down at the tomato-faced baby who just exited her womb. I'd never seen her look at anything or anyone else that way.

10 Things To Know When You're Dating Someone With Depression

Relationships are hard, and they're even harder when you or your partner's mood isn't in check. Though mental illness, especially depression, is scarily common in America, there is still a stigma attached to it. Society's at a point where we can talk openly about sex and even the wildest of fetishes, but revealing histories of mental illness is still a hard topic to broach-the last taboo.


I Was Terrified of Traveling Solo -- But Then It Changed My Life

When I was 13 and already on my third therapist, I was terrified of everything. Each session, I ran through a list of things that gave me anxiety. I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder at 12, so I knew too much about how it worked and could easily identify loads of “triggers.” Math class. Sleepovers. Kissing boys. Trains. Planes. Basically any transportation method. You name it, I was scared of it, and I could come up with a hundred horrible outcomes for each scenario.

Inside the world of selling nudes online

For just $1 a minute, you can sext Cece. For $10 you can get access to Leah's private Snapchat, or $15 for her used underwear. For $20, you can get a full face, total body nude from Lil Mami.

High Times
Puff N Pilates Founder Shares How Cannabis Can High-ten Your Pilates Practice

Britney Ortiz is disrupting LA's pilates scene with a strong core, reformer machines...and cannabis. With Puff N Pilates, Ortiz has developed a high-tened pilates experience that will elevate your mind, body, and soul. The one-of-a-kind fitness experience was created when Ortiz fused together two of her favorite things-cannabis and pilates.


The Resurgence Of Emo Goes Hand-In-Hand With Today's Mental Health Dialogue

The emo icons of the 2000s are still here and still rocking, but instead of partying hard on their time off, they're... doing yoga and barre? Talented as ever, Bert McCracken of The Used and Anthony Green of Circa Survive will be playing for audiences across the country during the Rockstar Energy Drink DISRUPT Festival.

Alternative Press
The Used's Bert McCracken has powerful words about life and death

Photos by: Ryan Muirhead] On a patio in sunny Los Angeles, Bert McCracken, frontman of , has his legs curled up in a chair while chainsmoking, spewing knowledge about life and death. The release of The Canyon, the band's emotionally charged seventh studio album, is only days away.

Dashboard Confessional's Chris Carrabba Is Emo, But He's Not Sad

Even the prince of emo sometimes forgets his own lyrics. And when he does, it's incredibly endearing. I'm on the phone with Chris Carrabba, Dashboard Confessional frontman, and I've just asked him what his favorite lyrics he's ever written are. He takes a long pause and apologizes.

Neck Deep's Ben Barlow On Walking The Tightrope Of Fame And Depression

Photo via @neckdeepuk Instagram / Photographed by Elliott Ingham "Pain, pain, go away, come back another day, I just wanna get one up on life before it kills me." The audience is scream-singing the lyrics to Neck Deep's single, "Where Do We Go When We Go," as show-goers not-so-gracefully crowd surf while recording themselves, presumably for Snapchat.

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